UnFUCKINGbelievable!

That's the word my brother used when I told him what MaryBeth did with Grandma's rings. I think it's the perfect word. I am so mad that that bitch got the rings that were supposed to go to me! She had no right to those! Grandma's probably turning in her grave that her rings went to that bitch.

Mike and Deb left this morning at 5am. It seems so quiet now. It was so nice to have them here for Christmas. Mom's sleeping and it's 11pm. I'll have to wake her up before midnight. Don't want to be sitting in front of the tv alone when it turns midnight. I hope 2007 will be a lucky year. Praying for a cure this year. Didn't happen in 2006, so let's hope it happens this year.

What was I thinking?

I was an idiot for rejoining Match.com after the 3 day trial. I should have stayed with my first instinct. I joined because a guy in a wheelchair wrote me and I had to join to respond. Then I get an email from him tonight and he made me feel bad because I have to take Dial a Ride. Now I'm pissed at him and myself. I'm in a lot of pain, so popped a Darvocet. I've already got off track with my shots. It's been 4 days and I haven't done it. I've been mad at Mom because she's doing stupid shit with these sweepstakes scams. I had to call the FBI, Attorney General's office and the bank to stop her from sending the $4700 to Canada which was a fraudulant check. It's so aggravating that she won't take me at my word. She underestimates me and my intelligence. Ever since I was with Kevin and would listen to him, she thinks I'm stupid.
I just had that guy call me from Match.com (Ron) and we visited for a bit. Not sure it's gonna work out. He's not really my type. Maybe we can be friends.

To date or not to date

I went ahead and joined match.com for 3 months cuz I figured, what the heck. A guy emailed me that is also in a wheelchair. He's not my physical type that I would normally look at, but we'll see. Mom helped me to get my bedroom cleaned up for Sean to stay in while he's here. My work room is as about as clean as it's going to get. Now I just wish Mom would get her ass moving on her bedroom again. She's putting it off to the last minute and it's driving me crazy! I've got a sinus headache right now, so having to rest my eyes off and on. I think Michelle is blowing me off, so screw it. Not worth the effort if she won't meet me halfway. I think I give up on trying to get ahold of Lori on the weekends. The only place I can catch her is at work and I hate calling someone at work. I wanted to send her something from Yankee Candle for xmas, but I am getting tapped out with doing all this shopping for Mike, Debbie and Sean. I hope the visit goes well, with my living habits and all. I'm not used to someone seeing how I live and working around it. Man my head hurts! I'll have to write later when my eyes aren't bothering me.